Is there a way to find my previous killer?

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I recently played for David King with a demogorgon,I ran to the gate and my teammates bodyblocked me.,The demogorgon stood at the beginning of the gates when everyone ran away,and I was the only one left.I completely forgot that i used dead hard and i needed to mend myself,so i lost a health state. The demogorgon stood at the beginning of the gates,and when i lost a health state he ran to me. That scared me so i left. He was very sad at the end,but i didn't give it any importance.after 2 mins i realized what he wanted,but iwas already in the lobby.now i hate myself even more and my conscience is tormenting me,so i cant play like before.i hope that there's a way to find him..